I wish I wasn’t running a startup.
I should be grateful. I was given an amazing opportunity - I have what could be considered an A-Team of investors backing my company. I have youth. I have some intelligence. I should be grateful.
But I have no freedom.
I’m trapped, running a product I no longer believe in. A product that is slowly dying and I have no idea how to fix.
I used to be able to create apps whenever I wanted. I would come up with an idea, design an app and push it live. I no longer do that - afraid that some investor may see me working on something other than the product they have invested in.
I’m afraid of what I tweet. Even what I blog. I feel like I’m constantly being watched. The truth is i’m not. I’m just one of hundreds of companies these a-lister investors have a stake in.
I remember when my product was so incredibly hot that I was getting daily press inquiries - everyone wanted to invest. I was on the phone to investors, pitching, selling. Now the phone won’t ring. Now I don’t know who to call.
I didn’t really make many mistakes outright. What I did was let things drift. I wasn’t aggressive enough. If I had my time again, I would know exactly what to do.
I wish I could turn back the clock. I would do pretty much everything differently. I’m sick of failing. I want to create successful stuff again. But I can’t - i’m trapped in this stupid startup. With this stupid product.
If anybody asks me how I’m doing - I always say “Great”. When I’m asked how the product is doing, I always say “great”. both lies. But have you ever heard an entrepreneur say there product is doing miserably.